The Echoes of Your Leaving

 (For Clay Seymour)

The echoes of your leaving
Bounce off the vaulted walls
of this room.

Shimmering the air
and the atoms between
in existential crescendo.

Like the soundtrack
Of the movies
You told me
We would make
To resound the voice
Of a generation
Even as your voice
Fell in timbre
And turned to sigh

(I remember the first time you introduced me
to your roommates. You told them, while we
sipped whiskey with coffee beans, that I was a lot
like you, but with a resilience of which you
were dispossessed.)

It gets better (right?)

I imagine this thought echoing
Through the spirals of your brain
Mobilizing the grey matter
To perform this darker act.

As the cord tightens
As the pills take hold
As the bullet plants the gift
At the crucible of your consciousness

Your soul ascends
To light's apex
And you are gone
And I am here
Haunted and wondering.

(If you could not make it? How on earth can I?)

Chrysler Dodge Neon

Riding in your car
Our yelling drowns the music
And you raise your hand
Like you do when your angry

Genocide in the Senate

There was a genocide in the Senate

And although no one wants to admit it

It goes by many names

SB 458, ICE, nativism, xenophobia

Many people think you need Germs, Guns, and Gold

For there to be genocide

But genocide can be the hand that steals the pen

From someone who wants to learn how to write

Or the burning of a book in front of someone

Who wishes they could read

Genocide is banning someone from a university because they were born

On the wrong side of a border

As if there was some natural order

That draws the line

Of human rights

At asinine geographic sights

And it disgusts me that we have yet to shake the yoke

Of the manifest destiny encouraged by James K. Polk

So we are stuck in this mentality of give and take

Give them hell and take their heaven as they tremble in our wake

I don’t think it’s such a big deal

That the red, white, and blue

Can be the rojo, blanco, y azul too

This is a war of conflicting interests and cultural suicide

Where pride and dollar signs shine brighter

Than the hopeful eyes

Of first generation undocumented students grasping in the dark

For acceptance and equality

But the gleam of self-destructive bigotry

Steals the light and leaves darkness

Where once was flame

Breaking down onto long, weary knees

And shuddering sighs because that’s the only way dreams

Can die

Not with a bang, but with a desperate cry

Of Dios why?

And the desperate howl

Of What now?

And

Who gave who the right to take mine away?

Is there ever going to be a day

When the same political blowhards that cry parasite

Will realize that the New World was founded

On the parasitic usurpation of murderers

Like Hernan Cortes and Franco Pizarro

And Christopher Columbus 

And With every bill they pass

That prioritizes humanitarian values last

They continue to walk the footsteps

Drenched in blood

Upholding a sordid tradition of disenfranchisement.

Where is the red, white, and blue in this?

Where is the poetry in this?

The world is growing restless America

And your creed is becoming nothing more

Than heedless words.

There is no affirmation of life found within the parchments

Of your Constitution.

There is only evidence of death

This is genocide.

This. Is genocide!

THIS. IS. GENOCIDE!

Basilisk Boy Redux

Basilisk Boy Redux

I.

You have a great smile
The nurse says
As I walk into the clinic
Her tone tuned to a frequency
That is accustomed to frequently
Relaying bad news

I am an intruder in this
Hall of needles
Defiling this anti-septic
Sanctuary with my
Hypochondriac anxiety

Sensitive to the ritual
Of point plunging into plasma
Pulling out my blood
Less like a test
More like a dark ritual
To some passover god

For the next few days
I am living in the shadow of this virus
Counting back possible exposures
Refusing food -- unsure
If I would be eating for one or for two

II.

Today is a day that the basilisk hath made
The news slithers into my inbox
Emissary of those needled halls
The result earth shattering

Negative - You are Negative
You are not yet the King of Serpents
That crooked crown may not rest upon your head
You are not a walking epidemic
Your breath is not miasma
Your blood is not acid

You no longer have to walk
In the shadow of this virus
Disease is not your destiny
No revolt lies waiting beneath your skin

The ritual is complete
You have been passed over

Cardigan in Raintime

You and Me
Walking in the rain
Taking refuge under
My blue cardigan
And I am
Proud for this
Momentary Victory I
Could protect Us
From the weather
But I couldn't
Protect us from
You and Me

Call and Response

In the tradition of

African-American gospel songs

There is a musical element

Known as call and response

Shout out and shout back

We shall overcome

A song that never ends

But only echoes

Louder and louder

Reverberating the call

Like a hymn within the vaulted walls

Of a church long burned down to the ground

The same ground watered by the blood

Of bodies deemed too black

To have ever known light

So we skirt over the issue

Until the uprising ensues

And we are screaming

Discordant and dismal

Over the sound of our

Common Humanity

Because when you water the ground with blood

The only thing that grows is blame

The only thing that grows is media coverage

That has hijacked our call

And engineered our response

The call: We shall overcome

The response: Black Lives Matter

Blue Lives Matter

All Lives Matter

As if we can give away meanings to lives

Like their gifts on one of Oprah's fucking talk shows

Your life gets to matter!

Your life gets to matter!

Your life gets to matter!

But no lives matter when we're

Beating each other black and blue

Missing the point

Missing the all-encompassing point

That we can't all be encompassed by

the politics of respectability

Because respectability says

If you just follow the law

You'll have nothing to worry about

If you just heed Jim Crow circling above your head

You won't have to worry about the noose circling around your neck

Have you ever seen a lynched body hanging from a tree

The way his legs sway and his mortality echoes

Such a heavy piece of strange fruit that the bow

Threatens to break

And how it doesn't

It just listens

Because it knows the sound of a lifeless body

Isn't a gospel song

The sound of a group of people

Telling you that they're being killed

Isn't a gospel song

There may be a call

But they don't need a response

Sometimes they just need you to shut up and listen.

Bed (No Longer a Battleground, But a Resting Place)

"They call it night.
They call it night.
And I know it well." -- Beirut, Gulag Orkestar

I am grinding down the bones of my hands into salt
I am spreading them around the frame of my bed
Watching them drift slowly
With the feathers of my pillow
In the light of the pale winter moon
Invoking angels and night-whisperers
To weave protection songs around the frame of
my bed and reinforce the lattices of my fragile hopes
To ward off the threats that pervade in the night hours
When it's so dark that even God
(or the suggestion of God)
must strain his eye to see
Me a pillar of salt at his bronze feet

Give me a sign
That the sky
Will not open up to swallow me hole
That tomorrow is not just a bridge
To another tomorrow that is not just
a bridge to another tomorrow that is
not just a bridge to another tomorrow.....

The marrow in my bones
Is rich with the anticipation
Of the ritual burn
Of the clairvoyant candle
Darting out like a serpentine tongue
of flame to lap up some ripple of the future
With me epicentral to this extrasensory event
Shaking anxious and aware like a conscientious earthquake
Regretting its own aftershock

Give me a sign
That the Earth is not a jealous lover
Waiting to take me back under
And turn my bones into fountain fodder
So I can enjoy this affair with life
For what it is, as long as possible
With no specter perched on my shoulder
Whispering doom disguised as pessimist's truth
So that every victory feels like someone let me win

I am grinding down my bones into salt
My feather pillows into angel appeal
For a breath of fresh air
And a hope that is fragile and enduring.